again..

i don’t know if i’ll hold up until graduation though..

i’m trying so hard to hold up right now.

i tried so hard to concentrate in school.

i tried so hard to be happy and forget everything.

i tried so hard not to think of her.

i tried so hard not to text her.

i tried so hard not to call her.

i tried so hard not to cry to my sister.

i tried so hard not cut myself.

i tried so hard to do my homework.

i tried so hard to act normal.

i tried so hard to tell her how i felt.

i tried so hard.

and it still isn’t good enough.

i failed at everything.

i always do.

i’m a bitch.