again..

if she doesn’t come back.

i’m saying goodbye to my life.

literally.

the truth. the only reason why i haven’t done it.

is because i still hope she’ll come back.. and be happy together.

i’m giving it until graduation.

for her to come back.

if not.

it’s the end.

the end of everything i have.

the end of my life.

i don’t know how i’ll do it.

i’ve thought about it before..

but i’m not sure..

i want something fast. like jumping off something high.

i don’t want a failed suicide.

i want to die on impact.

i am so serious.

i don’t even care.

my family wont ever understand.

maybe one day it will cross their mind that the only time i was ever happy was when i was with her.. especially just the two of us.

my favorite moment was after our anti prom when we came home and just sat there hugging.

maybe one day she’ll see..

i don’t even want to write about this.

there are so many things i can say about her..

i wouldn’t do her justice..